Going south today. My dad’s time on this earth is limited. He may pass in the next few days he may not. But he asked for me so I am coming down.
I realize with the difficulty of travel for 8 hours from Portland, Maine to Allentown, Pennsylvania what a gift it was to have my father in law close when he was passing. It’s barely been a year. And it’s soon for my dad, I can sense it in my heart. I think he is waiting to hold my hand one more time, and then go into the great beyond. As an agnostic, he is not sure what is there. He does want my mom to hold on though. They have been close for so long.
This is going to be a very tough drive, I am glad my wife is there with me. It’s tough just thinking about it. I need to be there so I will. I will feel displaced, but it’s where I need to be. It’s been a long road. It’s not quite over yet. I am really not ready, as much as I have been prepared for it. I am not sure I can ever be ready. It’s a tough thing to lose a parent, especially when he is only 67 and you expected him to live for a few more decades. But, it’s time to say goodbye, I’m not ready, I don’t think i could ever be ready.