I feel like I should already have left to Pennsylvania. When I get there I will wish I am in Maine. Did want to see one of the two shows Port Veritas has for Sam Sax and Denise Jolly on Monday 9pm at Mama’s Crowbar, and at 7:30pm on Tuesday at Bull Feeney’s upstairs.
I have been drifting. Not feeling myself. Not that with it. Wanting to nap a lot. I think I will feel similar when I get to Pennsylvania tomorrow. But it’s where I need to be. My dad has been an amazing survivor in the last 4 1/2 years since the Summer of 2008 but it’s almost over. Hearing that he wants me to be there so he can pass. I have been lucky to have a good family. But, it’s so, so hard losing a father and a father in law in a little over a year. I am numb. I am drifting. It will good to be there, hard to be there. It will be tough to leave, and good to leave.
He needs to see me. So I need to be there. Life isn’t always what you want it to be.