I only heard in passing this morning about the terrible shooting of 50 people having a good time in Orlando yesterday at a gay bar.
I can only take so much.
It’s becoming so normal to have a shooting somewhere.
For people to snap.
We are all taught to fear each other from an early age now. “Stranger Danger”. Kids aren’t running around town. Instead of the police being there to help you in need, you fear them giving you a ticket. Even if you really aren’t doing anything wrong.
Instead of getting to know our neighbors we close our doors.
Instead of kids running around the neighborhood and like in many culture knowing they can ask someone for help and often get it, children are taught to fear.
We lock our doors. We fear going for medical attention even if we have insurance. Worried about the bill.
We fear the calls on the phone. Whether we can’t afford student loans, medical expenses, credit cards, payday loans or anything else. And there are debt predators everywhere trying to make a buck. It’s terrible.
We are in a nation of greed where money is worshipped. And an absolute shyster becomes a major party’s nominee for President.
Where we fear the other. Other religions, other races, our nations, even our neighbors. There is often suspicion.
I really can’t deal with it. After work I did look at Facebook briefly and I did look at a New York Times summary of events. I Googled “Orlando shooting.”
It’s being called the worst shooting in American history. That’s not true. It’s not a major war, it’s not bombings, drone strikes, Civil Wars, trench warfare.
It’s not Antietam, Petersburg, France, the Battle of the Bulge, the Indian Wars, the Trail of Tears. It’s extremely sad.
It’s someone who felt hate and had an assault weapon shooting up people looking to have a good time. It’s something that makes us very afraid.
It’s becoming all too normal.
As for me I have been playing games. Mainly against myself, although there was some Hearthstone online. Magic: The Gathering (Landfall R/G, Naya W/R/G, and Goblins Red), Splendor. If I lived in Portland, I might be at a place like Arcadia right now. I would so much rather be making decisions and cards and chits then thinking about tragedy.
Be kind to yourself, turn off the news if you need to, watch a favorite movie, go for a walk, pet the dog, pet the cat, take a nap.
I wish it would say it isn’t going to happen again but it probably is.
I just think we need to learn to love each other again. Stop the insane security state, stop American Empire. Realize no one needs AR-15s, and that includes the military. So many people have been terrorized with similar weapons like AK-47s around the world.
We all just want to fart around. To eat, to laugh, to have a home, find work, get by. It shouldn’t be this difficult.